birthday blog

one year ago

today
another year has come and gone. a lot has changed.
last night was fun, but i got too drunk, too fast, and have some gaps in my memory. i like to think that those gaps are there for a reason, so that i don't have to think about the things i may have said or done. i wish i could at least remember blowing out my birthday candles. this year was one of the first times i had really thought about what i would wish for, and looked forward to the opportunity to have a clear and distinct moment in which i gathered the strength and determination to ask for something that would be good for me. just one moment in time in which i had the power to put out the fires, but instead all i have is a distorted image of candles coming at me and a vague recollection of them going out.
it was a fun night, and i don't want my birthday blues to wash away the fact that i did have fun, but doesn't everyone just get at least a little depressed on their birthday?